I said, ' Teaching moment: This is a tattooed aureole, and this is a reconstructed nipple.' And he was like, ' Cool! I get called fearless, but I’m not: Part of the reason I’m searching for a partner is that I fear my cancer will recur and I’ll end up alone, without someone by my side. It took me a long time to love and be comfortable with how I look.
It was the new me, the survivor, who created a profile on Coffee Meets Bagel last spring. I didn’t talk about cancer in my profile, but I posted a picture of myself with a mohawk, taken at the head-shaving party I threw before chemo.I admit there was a time, after I learned my cancer was gone, when I actually wished it would come back. And the day I did, at 27, I vowed, This is going to be a positive in my life.I’d gotten used to the constant support of my friends and family. And I dreaded the possibility of getting sick again: I didn’t know how to live in hope instead of fear. Last weekend I woke up with Coffee Meets Bagel guy at A. I try to do the same when it comes to online dating, which I haven’t done much of yet.' I’ve found that guys ask really smart, sensitive questions.Women often ask, ' How did you deal when you lost your hair?